haven blog 4 quite sumtime..been bz..personal life?..i suppose..xmas eve was a blast..
tanks 2 all who made my life perrrfect..
year's endin..-sighx-..
wonder how it whld be nex year..
++..tanks 2 all who stood by me thru tis yr..++..
haven exactly been a gd yr..
puttin it in a more direct wae..
my year was horrible..
tis year flew by even b4 i could see de sky turn bluee..
didnt turn out de wae i wanted it 2 be..
i remb last year's endin..
de sad miserable endin..
de brkin of hrt...
de flowin of tears..
den..
2002..
started out quite badly..
lolx..
i remb..alot...
but...as it ends..it got beta..
n i noe..
is u ppl out dere..
who made it a perfect endin..
tanks...
year 2003..
i cant imagine..how tis year whld turn out..
but im sure..
it whld be beta..
wif u ppl ard me..
i do hv 2 state names..
u all noe who u all r..
n of cos..
my perrfect gf..
beautiful endinnnn 2002 is..
i hope it stays tis wae..
-prays-..
i wana do a few msgs?..
lolx..
but shall do it de next entry..
++..DaTs wAd itS aLL aBt..++..
Whisk 'n' Bake Personal Nook 12/28/2002 11:41:00 PM
Friday, December 27, 2002
yes..another thing some what happened to cross my mind ...
it was yesterday..in heerens..as usual just hanging ard the top storey. staring into
blank space. was just dreaming about nothing ...
And suddenly some one waved to me, some one dressed fully in black
a person whomed i love so v.much(mayb not so very much now)..it was
her..yes indeed..have'nt seen her out in the streets for some time..most of
the time.i would only be able to see her behind the counters.surprising but
i was happy.heart raced n a big grin.what was the grin for.i have no idea.
but i do miss her loads.i miss the huge incredible amount of love i have
for her.shooked her hand which warmed my cold heart.for once my tummy
didnt ached that time.neither was it queasy.but my heart didnt feel like it was
about to dissolve.it was still "hard"? or "stoned"?..never mind about it.
As long as she is fine n i know that somethings abt her has changed for the better.
her gf must be a fantastic girl.the past is gone.and its time to move on.the memories
remain.both happy n sad.the joy n the tears.but im still alright..*_* Whisk 'n' Bake Personal Nook 12/27/2002 06:36:00 PM
hm..on xmas day...some one sent me a msg ard 2.30am in the morning..
it was a frd whom i-thought-i've-lost...she said smtg like,
"Yo ppl..merry xmas! may all ya wishes come true..have a happy year."
smtg like it..cldnt really remember..but at least she still remembered me..
and i was really happy n touched..maybe she really had no had feelings
abt me screaming at her tt "fine day"..maybe she still regarded me as her
friend and not just another stranger..maybe i had just imagine too much
n fooled myself that i've lost another. i just hope things wld go back to
normal.like how i can talk and play and fool and joke with her like in the
past. without fearing that she(and maybe the rest of them) wld not like me
yes..oh yes..i hope things wld turn out fine.n that next yr.there wld be no mre
jinxed day for me on my bday!
Whisk 'n' Bake Personal Nook 12/27/2002 05:52:00 PM
yes..i forgot to mention some thing abt erm.5days ago!!...
*ahem* here goes everything...
no.1 >>>>>>>>>>>>> I'M 5MONTHS AND 5DAYS SINGLE ALREADY...ooohhh yeah~.hahahahaz.
>>end of my monthly message<<<< Whisk 'n' Bake Personal Nook 12/27/2002 05:26:00 PM
hm....today..was another quite grouchy morning..woken up by my lil sis...she just PLOP-ED
onto my stomach when i was 3/4-awake...ouucchhhhh...she is a 22kg monster!..squashed my
bulging tummy..she think im some bean bag that can be jumped on ar?!..crazy baby!..hahahahz
hm..then the stupid cheena tutor of mine..suddenly called up and said that shes coming over to
teach me at 2pm. It was already 1:20pm n ive yet to bahte n change n eat my brunch. grrrr.last
minute decisions. tsk.oh well nvm.its all over now.
yippe!!no more tuition until next thurs(candy)hahaz.was talking to mic on the phone just now.her
tutor n my tutor are best friends too.whahahaz..what concidence.yeah.didnt know that my tutor
is the "bigger sister" and the more "open" one.hmm i see mic online now.yeah..mom as usual
nagging nagging at me.telling me that i better concentrate more on my studies(like im not scared
for next yr).and that i cant go out tml.sigh.anyway ive got no more interesting places to"explore"
and i wanna play my ff8.WHICH HANGED AGAIN! erm i think.sobsobsob.damn the cd.the next
part is gg to be so interesting.tsk.dammit.
hm.net is geting alittle boring now.nvm.i;ve got my PS to accompany me.yay~...tata Whisk 'n' Bake Personal Nook 12/27/2002 05:22:00 PM
Wednesday, December 25, 2002
oohh quite an awful morning...*shrugs*...hiaz...i slept ard 4am in the morning yday night..
was watching vcd..playing wid younger sis..n also talking to mic n sarah on the phone..
they really do know how to gossip..haaz...i didnt get enough of my beauty sleep..was
half woken up by dad..but i dozed of agn..hahahaz...he den started screaming n yelling
at me...like as if he just came out of MPH...grrr..whn i finally took my bath...the whole fam
was screaming agn at each other...mostly big sis n mom....WTH IS WRONG WITH ALL
OF THEM!!...argz!...its christmas!..cant they even just forget abt squabbling for one pathetic
day!!!???...tsk..cant even take a nice quite bath...grrr...stupid idiotic foolss Whisk 'n' Bake Personal Nook 12/25/2002 03:22:00 PM
